Not As Bad As I Used To Be
Danceability76%
Energy51%
Acousticness9%
Instrumentalness0%
Speechiness4%
Liveness8%
Valence68%
Tempo104 bpm
KeyA major
Time Sig.4
Loudness-11.39 dB
Not As Bad As I Used To Be is a self aware Manatomy track about growth, mistakes, and becoming a better version without pretending to be perfect. It balances cheeky queer honesty with emotional reflection, making it both club friendly and personal.
Lyrics
Yeah
You cleaned me up a little (just a little)
But kept the dirty parts you like
I used to ghost at 4 am
Names in my phone I'd just forget
Drunk texts
Bad sex
Wrong bed
Didn't care who I hurt
Who I left on read
Then you showed up in my worst phase
Boot on my neck in the best way
Laughing at my fucked-up past
SaidBaby we can fix that fast (oh yeah)
Now it's cuffs in the drawer
But my heart's on the floor
Every time that you drag me closer
Got me begging for more
But I'm better than before
Cause I'm all yours when it's over
I'm not as bad as I used to be
Still a freak
But you're the only one who sees
You got me on my knees
But I'm finally free
Yeah
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully
I'm not as wild as I used to be
Tie me down
Talk shit
Still you take care of me
You turned my dirty into destiny
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully (with you)
I used to lie just for the thrill
Break every rule
Chase every chill
Quick hits
Quick quits
No feels
Only ever thinking how my body feels
Now it's your bite on my shoulder
Your hand on the back of my neck when it's over
Safe word hanging on your lips
But I'd rather just take that risk (oh)
Got the marks on my skin
But you're under my skin
Every sin got a silver lining
You're my favorite bad habit
And I'm proud that I have it
Cause this chaos finally feels like timing
I'm not as bad as I used to be
Still a freak
But you're the only one who sees
You got me on my knees
But I'm finally free
Yeah
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully
I'm not as wild as I used to be
Tie me down
Talk shit
Still you take care of me
You turned my dirty into destiny
Yeah I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully (with you)
Used to run from every room
Now I'm running straight to you
Chain around my heart
Not my throat tonight
You say good boy stay
And my demons obey
Guess I like being wrong when it feels this right (feels this right)
I'm not as bad as I used to be
Still a freaky
But you're the only one who sees
You got me on my knees
But I'm finally free
Yeah
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully
I'm not as wild as I used to be
Tie me down
Talk shit
Still you take care of me
You turned my dirty into destiny
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully (with you)
Yeah I'm fucked up faithfully with you
You cleaned me up a little (just a little)
But kept the dirty parts you like
I used to ghost at 4 am
Names in my phone I'd just forget
Drunk texts
Bad sex
Wrong bed
Didn't care who I hurt
Who I left on read
Then you showed up in my worst phase
Boot on my neck in the best way
Laughing at my fucked-up past
SaidBaby we can fix that fast (oh yeah)
Now it's cuffs in the drawer
But my heart's on the floor
Every time that you drag me closer
Got me begging for more
But I'm better than before
Cause I'm all yours when it's over
I'm not as bad as I used to be
Still a freak
But you're the only one who sees
You got me on my knees
But I'm finally free
Yeah
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully
I'm not as wild as I used to be
Tie me down
Talk shit
Still you take care of me
You turned my dirty into destiny
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully (with you)
I used to lie just for the thrill
Break every rule
Chase every chill
Quick hits
Quick quits
No feels
Only ever thinking how my body feels
Now it's your bite on my shoulder
Your hand on the back of my neck when it's over
Safe word hanging on your lips
But I'd rather just take that risk (oh)
Got the marks on my skin
But you're under my skin
Every sin got a silver lining
You're my favorite bad habit
And I'm proud that I have it
Cause this chaos finally feels like timing
I'm not as bad as I used to be
Still a freak
But you're the only one who sees
You got me on my knees
But I'm finally free
Yeah
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully
I'm not as wild as I used to be
Tie me down
Talk shit
Still you take care of me
You turned my dirty into destiny
Yeah I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully (with you)
Used to run from every room
Now I'm running straight to you
Chain around my heart
Not my throat tonight
You say good boy stay
And my demons obey
Guess I like being wrong when it feels this right (feels this right)
I'm not as bad as I used to be
Still a freaky
But you're the only one who sees
You got me on my knees
But I'm finally free
Yeah
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully
I'm not as wild as I used to be
Tie me down
Talk shit
Still you take care of me
You turned my dirty into destiny
I'm fucked up
Fucked up
But I'm fucked up faithfully (with you)
Yeah I'm fucked up faithfully with you
